Tuesday, May 20, 2008

Amazing Grace - Day 81

I think something epic happens to the juice feaster at this point along the journey. It seems like there is a battle for the soul of those who make it this far into the process. At least that is the battle that is raging within me. David Rainoshek speaks quite prolifically about juice feasting being a hero's journey. And at Day 81, I concur that long term juice feasting isn't for the faint of heart...nor is raising a teenager who has just been suspended from the last week of 9th grade....nor is supporting your 78 year old father as he faces another serious life change that likely involves divorce. That pretty much sums up my day. Pretty hardcore, yet I find that I am supernaturally anchored and filled with love, compassion and understanding. The human condition is no easy place but I am somehow blissfully aware of God's abundant grace to see it all through.

Tuesday's Daily Juice:
1.5 qt. Green Lemonade.....1/2 head celery, 1/2 bunch kale, 1 cucumber, 3 apples, 1 lemon, tiny chunk of ginger.
1.5 qt citrus blend......grapefruit, orange, tangelo, blood orange w/ Spirulina
water fasted the remainder of the day.


Melissa said...

Wow...the only thing I can think of to say is may the peace that passeth all understanding continue to support and nurture you. Be still and know my friend. Namaste'

Rediscover Raw Food said...

Hang in there...all things are possible (as you know)...Your indominatable spirit shines through, and will carry you through as well. Situations must seem especially tough right now, but how wonderful to have your solid faith upon which to stand. How wonderful for both your 9th grader and your 78 yo Daddy to have you with them through these trials. Keeping you all in my prayers.

Hanlie said...

Thinking of you!

Charissa said...

Penni, your peaceful spirit shines right through. May that amazing grace sustain you and God's love shine in your heart and tell you of His amazing love, as well as grace, for you.

May He guide you...

Love ya! XOXO

Dea said...

Dear Penni,
Its hard to feel like our needs are being met when there is drama all around us. I want to say to you to please not forget to be gentle with yourself and nurturing as your life swirls around you and your loved ones are in need.
I am praying for your kid and your dad and your stepmom. May God walk with them in these challenging moments...
Even if its taking a walk, drawing a warm bath scented w/essential oils or even just a cup of herbal tea. Take time to do things for yourself and replentish. Lots of love, Dea

Anonymous said...

I am touched by your words and captivated by the photo you chose. Yesterday was a day of swirling chaos and frustrationin my life as well. But after a day of buckets of tears I awoke this morning with a prayer to begin again...and not to drown under the pressure. (And not to feel so alone in standing up to what is thrown my way.)

I am praying for you. I wish I had your grace under pressure.

Linda Salas said...

your family is so blessed to have you and I believe this juice journey makes you stronger provides you with the much needed energy.

Much love!!

Birch Center said...

Wow, Penni,
So much going on, it's amazing how you are able to stay grounded and compassionate and loving. You are truly a light and inspiration to all!

loulou said...

Hi Penni, oh dear heart, you're having such a tough time of it at present. Theres' something that has occurred to me that I need to share with you. I've been very near to where you are so I think I can say this without being presumptuous: things are going on around you that are tough, under any circumstances. Juicefeasting is making life tough in some ways and yet in others it's allowing you to stay centered and grounded. I feel that over the past few days your words are linking juicefeasting with the other events in your life, yet they're not causally related. They're two lines of your life, going along in parallel. I'm worried that you are creating a link which doesn't exist. Just wanted you to have a think around that.
At the same time I want to send you lots of love and support. You've been so strong up to here, and I know you'll get through this. It's all about time. xxx

Anonymous said...

Being a freshman myself suspension seems like a pretty cool thing to happen, but I guess that's not how you see it..I personally don't think suspension means anything. Your awesomeness factor goes up though!! :):):) But good luck with your struggles!! Don't wallow!

Anonymous said...

Green lemonade was YUMMY! I subbed a zuke for the cucumber and put a bit too much ginger but non the less yummy.

Judi said...

I'm inspired by your positive attitude and strength in spite of the current challenges facing you. Sending you much love and light as well as infinite blessings.

HiHoRosie said...

Wow, tough day/week for sure but you seem to be a strong woman with grace who can weather this storm - and how fortunate your family is to have you in their lives. My prayers are with you and your family.

Wendi Dee said...

I wish I was here for you during what seemed like a tough time. I hope things are calmer now in your life. I guess I'll be finding out as I continue to work my way to your grand finale!! ;-)

Lots of love to you,

Wendi Dee